Feast or Famine... and other thoughts

Feast or famine. That's my life. I either have 500 things to do or nothing. I have 83 outfits to wear or everything is dirty. I can find all 20 pair of black shoes or only the yellow ones. You get my drift. It just always seems like everything happens at one time and never at the right time. It's always a now or never thing and there's always 5 now-or-never choices all at one time or zero for months. It drives me nuts sometimes.

In terms of job stuff, I feel like when it's the right job it will work out. The right employer will be willing to wait a few weeks in order for me to fulfill prior commitments. Right now, I don't have much. I am my word. If I give it, I'm certainly not breaking it. It's all I've got to stand on.

Anyhow, I'm just feeling overwhelmed lately with all of the things going on in my life. There have been a number of disappointments and set backs over the last year and I am just ready to move on... hopefully I'll find a full-time job soon and be able to get on with life.

On that note. I need to stop saying and thinking that. This is my life. This mess. This chaos. This crazy, hectic, stressful thing is my life. You know, aside from the job thing, it's really a good life. The thing about being unemployed is that it doesn't just affect your professional life, but every little thing about your life. That's why it's so hard to overlook. I mean, either way I still need to remember that for whatever reason God has placed me at this moment and has given me this life... it is a gift. I may not understand why all of this if happening. I may never understand. But, I am thankful for the wonderful people in my life and for the interesting twists. It's made things interesting. :)