I keep praying that I will find something. I don't know. Maybe I am praying the wrong prayer. Jeff (my preacher) said that somewhere in the Bible (I think it was the Bible... maybe this was one of his stories) (I missed out on the exact place) it says that someone said "Lord I believe. Please help my unbelief." I feel exactly that way. I so believe that God will make a way for me and Jake. I so believe that He will send us somewhere. That we will find jobs. That we will be ok. But then I think... what if He doesn't? I know that is awful.
I hear all the time about people giving their problems to God. I try. I try very hard to do that. I can't. I simply cannot let it go.