Feeling Defeated

Well, I am feeling very defeated today. Not that today is really any different from any other day. Each night I send out countless emails only to have one or two returned with the polite "we're checking resumes. if you are selected we will call you." response. I am just so worn out by the whole thing. I would love to be able to teach. I am a great teacher. I know in my heart that I was born to teach... but that may not happen. I have said before that I would be ok with that... with not teaching... and I suppose I will be. I just need to accept the fact that not all dreams come true and that Marilyn Monroe was right when she said, "I believe that everything happens for a reason. People change so that you can learn to let go, things go wrong so that you appreciate them when they're right, you believe lies so you eventually learn to trust no one but yourself, and sometimes good things fall apart so better things can fall together." I am praying that all the good things falling apart in my life are doing so so that better things can fall together.