I have said on here before that I try very hard to be a positive person and I fully believe that being a positive person and having a positive outlook should be a top priority for myself when it comes to students, but it is tough. I am disappointed in myself today. I reacted in a way that was not only negative, but border-line rude. I apologized to the student for speaking to her the way I did and, to be honest, I think she was over it after that... but it is really just weighing on me. I know that they learn from me- not only what I teach- but the way I act and the way that I present myself. They learn more than just subjects from me and I should be a living example for them of how to behave. I also know that I am human and that there are some days when I simply reach my breaking point. That is not an excuse, however, and I will not make it one.
I don't want everyone thinking I am a horrible person because I spoke to a student in a way that I regret. It is not that I said anything mean, it is that I said it in front of her classmates and I should have pulled her aside. I do not at all believe that public humiliation is an ok form of punishment. That is never ok. As I said, I did apologize to her and I think everything is ok.
Anyhow, I'll stop worrying about it and just learn from the lesson.
There is a quote, and I am not sure who said it, but it goes like this, "Teachers teach more by what they are than by what they say."
Aw Mags! People have tough days. People make mistakes. You apologized and admit your outburst... that's all you can do. To be honest I find it hard to believe that you can be rude or mean. Stuff happens. God & people(most of them) forgive. ;o) Your'e STILL a great person!
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