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Wednesday, January 29, 2014

Steps in the Right Direction

"If you want to get over a problem, stop talking about it. Your mind affects your mouth, and your mouth affects your mind. It's difficult to stop talking about a situation until you stop thinking about it." -Joyce Meyer
(I'm no Joyce Meyer fan or anything, but I found this quote on Pinterest and loved it.)

In my last post I talked about needing to let things go. I am actually feeling much better about these things because I've stopped thinking about one of them and am pretty close to the other one. Now, I know that saying I never think about these things is a lie. But, I am not constantly thinking about these things anymore. Occasionally I catch myself heading in that direction and just force myself to change my thoughts and think of other things.

I think one reason I was thinking of these things so much is because I was talking about these things so much. My thoughts and conversations were consumed by these things. I've just changed the topic when these things come up.

I really am feeling much better already.

I've also prayed about being able to let these things go. I've prayed to not let them consume my thoughts and conversations. I actually laid down last night to go to sleep and felt completely at peace for the first time in a long time. It was a great feeling. And, I thanked God for it. Really, I did.

Wednesday, January 22, 2014

Thinking Aloud

"Inner peace begins the moment you choose not to allow another person or event to control your emotions."

There are many things I need to let go. There are two main things that, honestly, eat at me. Some days they consume my thoughts and make me so mad I want to yell at the people who have caused these things... but I can't. Mainly because neither issue is really any of my business.

What? You're wondering how I can be so passionate about something that is none of my business? Can't we all? I think so. These are things that annoy me, drive me crazy... honestly, they make me feel like there is so much injustice in the world. Or maybe just that there are innocent people involved in both of these situations that can't do anything about it. Neither can I. I can only sit by and watch and pick my jaw up off the floor occasionally... but nothing else.

Last night I wrote about repenting. About how you have to let things go and let God deal with them. About how I have such a hard time doing that. These are two things I must let go. I have to for the sake of my own sanity- my own inner peace. The problem is (and not that I'm making excuses) these things have been going on for years. I have had them in my thoughts, prayers, and conversations for years. They have been (many days) the center of my concern. So, you see, it's hard to just drop it.

So, now before I work on repenting for not giving this stuff to God, I'll be working on not thinking and talking about these things all the time. I think that's the first step.

Tuesday, January 21, 2014

Chaos and Crazniess

Many people who know me know that I live my life in a constant state of chaos and craziness. I am always on the go. Always.

There are days, however, when I am just completely exhausted from the chaos that is my life.

Today is one of those days.

I am tired of and from many things going on my life. Things I won't talk about to people I don't know... but things I can't necessarily do anything about. I have a problem with letting things go. I know I cannot change them. I know I cannot make some things better or different, but I still hold on to those things.

I have started reading an online devotional ( and the first night (tonight) was "repent". Repenting really means you need to admit what you're doing wrong and turn from it and do better. I know that. I've known that. I know what I'm doing "wrong" (for lack of a better word) but I don't know how to turn from it. How do you turn from constantly having things on your mind that don't allow you to have your mind on the right things? You're supposed to not worry. Give it to God, so they say. I have a hard time with that. That's what I really need to repent of, is not letting God be in charge. Now, I know He is in charge but I am over here trying to do things all by myself and that's just not possible. It's like the old saying goes something like, "We plan and God laughs." There's just so much going on and I need to let Him deal with it. I need to trust that it will all work out in His time and with His plan, but I am having such a hard time with giving it up.

So, how do you give that up? How do you give it all to God?

Just my thoughts for tonight...