Thinking Aloud

"Inner peace begins the moment you choose not to allow another person or event to control your emotions."

There are many things I need to let go. There are two main things that, honestly, eat at me. Some days they consume my thoughts and make me so mad I want to yell at the people who have caused these things... but I can't. Mainly because neither issue is really any of my business.

What? You're wondering how I can be so passionate about something that is none of my business? Can't we all? I think so. These are things that annoy me, drive me crazy... honestly, they make me feel like there is so much injustice in the world. Or maybe just that there are innocent people involved in both of these situations that can't do anything about it. Neither can I. I can only sit by and watch and pick my jaw up off the floor occasionally... but nothing else.

Last night I wrote about repenting. About how you have to let things go and let God deal with them. About how I have such a hard time doing that. These are two things I must let go. I have to for the sake of my own sanity- my own inner peace. The problem is (and not that I'm making excuses) these things have been going on for years. I have had them in my thoughts, prayers, and conversations for years. They have been (many days) the center of my concern. So, you see, it's hard to just drop it.

So, now before I work on repenting for not giving this stuff to God, I'll be working on not thinking and talking about these things all the time. I think that's the first step.