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Friday, November 12, 2010

My Heart Is Tired

My heart is tired. There are so many things weighing on me lately and I am just really having a hard time dealing with all of the stress. I can tell that the stress is taking a toll on me. I walk into a room and forget what I was doing. I do that all the time now. I will be in the middle of a sentence and forget where I was going with it. I can't ever finish one thing before I start another. I am worn out.
I keep being put in the middle of situations that I don't want to be... that I shouldn't be in. I want to be there for people, but I simply can only take so much. I am only one person.
I worry a lot. I used to never worry about anything. Well, that's a lie. I worried but things didn't eat at me the way they do now. Now I just get things in my head and just can't leave them alone. I even wake up in the middle of the night thinking about something I meant to do and didn't and how it is going to make something else messed up. Ugh.
I want to be positive again. I want to be upbeat again. I want to be happy. Not that I'm not happy. I wouldn't say I'm unhappy, just stressed. There's more to do in one day than there could ever be time for. I don't have time for me and I don't have time to finish everything I need to do. I mean, I feel like I can't give 100% to anything I do because I don't have it to give. I feel like if something does get 100% then something else gets about 10% or nothing. It's frustrating.

Ok. Enough complaining. I'm done with being negative. I need to go back to not dwelling on the negative. I need to be more positive. I will work on that.


  1. We all get times like that honey, it will pass I promise you that. Keep your chin up and get plenty of MilShelb huggles I find my doggy snuggles always help.
    Momma Tea
    xx xx xx

  2. Sounds like you need a mini vaction. If you can only do one thing, you can only do one thing. Believe me I know the feeling and I agree with Mollys Momma, we've all been there. I've been that way for the last few months. Slow down take a deep breath and hold your husband and dogs tight. You can't take care of anyone else until you take care of yourself. It isn't easy, but you are the only one who can take care of you. And believe it or not, YOU are most important. Thank you for sharing and being honest. Sometimes you just need to take a break and get yourself back. Do something just for you. We will be thinking of you.