Once In A Lifetime Love...

Once In A Lifetime Love By Keith Urban

I can see it in your eyes and feel it in your touch
I know that you're scared but you've never been this loved
It's a long shot, baby, I know it's true,
But if anyone can make it, I'm betting on me and you
Just keep on moving into me
I know you're going to see
The best is yet to come

Don’t fear it now; we're going all the way
Where that sun is shining on a brand new day
It's a long way down, and it's a leap of faith
But I’m never giving up, 'cause I know we got a once in a lifetime love

Everybody's looking for what we've found
Some wait their whole lives and it never comes around
So don’t hold back now,
Just let go of all you’ve ever known
You can put your hand in mine

Don’t fear it now; we're going all the way
Where that sun is shining on a brand new day
It's a long way down, and it's a leap of faith
But I’m never giving up, 'cause I know we got a once in a lifetime love

I close my eyes and I see you standing right there
Saying “I do” and they’re throwing rice in our hair
Then the first one’s born, then a brother comes along and he’s got your smile
I’ll be looking back on the life we had still by your side

So don't fear it now; we're going all the way
Where that sun is shining on a brand new day
It's a long way down, and it's a leap of faith
But I’m never giving up, 'cause I know we got a once in a lifetime love

Jake and I aren't perfect. We know that and we'll be the first to admit it. We aren't perfect people. We make mistakes. We fail sometimes. We get it wrong every now and then... but one thing is for sure. We truly have a "once in a lifetime love". I can honestly say that I have never met someone like Jake. He is an amazing man and I am blessed to be his wife. Jake Hall, I love you. Love love love you.

wow!

I saw this quote today on a friend of mine's facebook page...

"What I do today is important because I'm trading a day of my life for it." Unknown

It surprised me by how deeply this quote touched me. It is as if it all makes sense now. I need to make sure that I am truly putting my all into all that I do and living exactly as I should... because while today may just seem to be any other day it is not. It is a day of my life... one day less than I had yesterday. I need to stop talking about wanting to make a difference and get out there and make one. I need to remember that what I do is important and needs to be treated that way. Gosh, I am just so in love with this quote!!!

Thanks girl! (I won't put her name incase she doesn't want it in my blog.)

A Few Thoughts...

If you read this blog you probably know a few things about me... one being that I have 2 dogs and am totally obsessed! Well, I just have to have a moment to gripe. This is what really erks me... I hear of people all the time getting rid of their pets. They claim that these pets are "like family" and it "breaks their heart" to get rid of them but they are "moving and can't take them" or are "not able to spend enough time with them"... the list of excuses is a mile long. I especially hate it when I see that excuse of not enough time stuck to a dog at a SHELTER! I mean, hello... you don't have enough time so now your dog has NO TIME?! That is not right. I do not understand it. I thank God that I will never understand it. I would sell every last thing I owned before I gave up Milly and Shelby. When you get a pet it is your RESPONSIBILITY to take care of that pet. That means that you feed it, provide it shelter, take it to the vet, and (imagine this, here's the real kicker) LOVE it! A dog is the most loyal, loving creature. It loves you no matter what. You could be the most horrible person and your dog still thinks you are amazing. I truly believe that if people were half as wonderful as their dogs thought (or if they'd even try to be) this world would be a better place.

So, here's my point. If you have a pet- it's your pet. You made a (and maybe it was unspoken) promise to that pet. You are to be there for that pet and do the very best for that pet. I understand that there are some situations that are unpreventable, but you should still make your pet a priority. If you have to give it up, do not give it to whomever offers the most money. Take the time to find that pet a loving home... one that is better than the one you are providing.

I read something one time that really made me think. I know people wonder why I obsess over MilShelb so much- why I spend so much time with them... the answer is this (and forgive me, I don't know the name of the person who said it first- but they are sooo smart): A dog's life ranges from around 7 years to around 16. People don't think it's a big deal to leave their dogs for hours upon hours or even up to weeks at a time... that is a lifetime to a dog. Think about it- you'll probably live to atleast 70. That's nearly 10 times longer than a dog. So, while a few hours or days isn't much to you- it is sooo long to them. They miss you. YOU are their world.

That's it. I'm off my soap box...

oh, and please please please SPAY OR NEUTER YOUR PET!!!!

A Few New Pics

Just Because I Owe it To Them

I know it's weird... and call me crazy... but I like to look up and read about miniature dachshunds.

I think it is partly because I love dogs and mostly because I am obsessed with the two

minis running around ruling my house. I find Milly and Shelby to be many things... true to their breed,

they are loyal companions that feel the need to warn me at the slightest noise or approaching stranger

(even if the stranger is a bird, spider, or their own father). They are sweet little ladies that fill our days

with smiles, tail wags, and the occasional frustration over doing things that are, in my honest opinion,

not socially acceptable. :)

It is said on some websites that dachshunds are proud and bold. http://www.dogster.com/breeds/Miniature_Dachshund

They are also known for being independent thinkers and believe that they rule the world. http://www.yourpurebredpuppy.com/reviews/dachshunds.html

Some people describe them as fearless... especially for their tiny size. :)

I still remember taking them to Petsmart one day with my sister, Danielle, and her "dogter" Izzy. Milly (not even full-grown) decided to bark and growl at a HUGE dog. I appologized to the owner (who was hardly able to hold on to his dog) and got Milly aorund the corner and quickly explained to her that we do NOT ever bark at large dogs. I told her that she needs to pick fights with dogs her own size because when that big dog cam charging I was dropping her leash and running the other way!! lol She's a mess and has yet to learn that she is 16 pounds and not even a foot tall. Some call it the Nepolian Complex and she definately has it!

Milly and Shelby surprise me every day by how different their personalities are. They could not be more different if they tried! Milly is our loud, bold, courageous, watch-dog of a dachshund. Shelby, on the other hand, is our "little wiggle". She loves everyone and everything. She does not meet a stranger and she has a constant smile on her face and wag in her tail. Don't get me wrong, she barks out warnings to us as well... but normally only chimes in with Milly. She's so funny. She goes running after Milly barking along as if to suggest that she's "got her back".

We have our good days and our bad days. There are times when they make me want to pull my hair out, jump up and down and scream as loud as I can. There are times when they eat things they shouldn't or use the bathroom in places I don't see until I step in them... but at the end of the day they are my children... my pride and joy. We love them more than we ever knew possible. They are and will continue to be my inspiration to be a good person. As someone very wise once said "I want to be the person my dog already thinks I am." I strive for that every day. I don't always achieve it... but I sure do try.

Oh, MilShelb... I love you. :)

Moving On...

Well, as many may have realized school has started and I am jobless. Oh well. I was very upset about it at first and pretty sad on the first day of school when everyone started back and here I was... without a place to go. I've moved on from it though and have made some major decisions that I truly think are for the best.

1. I will not dwell on the fact that I do not have a full-time teaching job.

2. I will "get my foot in the door" by subbing and be grateful for that opportunity.

3. I will work on building my resume and references.

4. I will go to grad school... that's right, GRAD SCHOOL!!

I've applied to Winthrop and, as long as my meeting goes well tomorrow and I can sign up for their payment plan, I'll be starting class this week! Yay! I've decided to go for my master's in Middle Level Education. I figure that way I can teach 2nd to 8th grade and plus I think middle school is a different place to work. The kids are at that weird stage in their lives and I'm sure it makes for an interesting day. lol

I've been working in the yard planting plants and it has to be the most frustrating thing ever. I don't care for dirt or bugs so, needless to say, I spend the whole time entirely grossed out! haha But, the most frustrating thing about it is that MilShelb doesn't get it and thinks they should dig up the plants! grrr! It's actually kind of funny in an all-I-can-do-to-keep-from-losing-my-mind-is-laugh kind of way! lol

So, the main update is that I am still keeping my head up and a smile on my face and am trying my best to keep my head above water... and am getting my life in order. :)

This MilShelb mom needs some money... so feel free to get me to sub! :)

Struggling

"Peace of mind makes the body healthy, but jealousy is like a cancer."

It's horrible, I know... but I find myself growing more and more jealous of people who have been able to find jobs as teachers... it kills me to fill this way. I just don't know what to do. I am so tired of telling people I've been unable to find a job. It makes me feel like a failure. It's not that I think that I deserve a job any mroe than the next girl... just that I really wish I had one. I'm so tired of telling people "oh I'm planning on subbing..." with a smile on my face. It's getting hard to fake. I'm scared to death of not having a steady job with steady income. I'm afraid that since I didn't find a job this year that my references will be so out of date that I won't be able to find a job next year. I am just sooooo stressed.

I know that I have a great deal to be thankful for. I have a roof over my head, food in my fridge, fabulous families, amazing friends... and am married to a man that I know without a doubt will never leave me. I just feel like such a failure... so inadequate... all because I can't find a job. I know it's not me. It's that there are so many people looking for the few jobs available that people are taking people with experience or ending up hiring from within the district... it's just really getting me down. I'm trying so hard to be upbeat... I'm just feeling very beaten down...

Please keep me in your prayers. I need confidence that everything will be ok... that it will all work out...

Please, dear God, give me ground or give me wings.