Not About Me...

Father break my heart for what breaks Yours

Give me open hands and open doors

and put Your Light in my eyes and let me see

That my own little world is not about me.

~Matthew West

Not about me. Not about me? Not about me?! You've got to be kidding.

No, really. I'm sitting here at my computer and I have to say I'm embarrassed. I've acted all day as if "my own little world" is all about me. Yeah, well in my world it very well may be all about me... but in the real world, where my little world happens to reside, it is not all about me.

I have gotten bent out of shape today over things that will not matter next week. (I'd say they won't matter tomorrow, but they will. They'll matter Thursday, too... but after that, not so much.) I've let situations get the best of me. I've let other people get the better of me. I've let my negative attitude win. How dare me!

Tomorrow I will remember that it is not all about me. In fact, it's not even a little bit about me from 7:30-2:40. It's all about 16 other people who depend on me to keep it in check. I'll do that because they deserve it.

ugh. Are You Serious?!

I was reading Molly's Mom's post and was so frustrated! I cannot believe (no, really I can. sadly.) that a grown man would behave this way. It makes me angry. Like Molly's Mom, I do not normally condone the hitting (or punching) of animals... especially not animals that belong to someone else... but, I'll go ahead and warn you, if I'm ever in a park and you allow your large dog to come and bite one of my babies on the leg and then proceed to laugh at me when I am frantically trying to get your dog to leave mine alone, you'd best bet I'll punch your dog... and you. And then I'll call the cops... and my husband. lol I mean, the nerve of some people.

Don't feel bad, Molly's Mom. I'd have done that same thing. In my opinion, YOU GO GIRL!! You go. Your job is to protect them and be their advocate... and you were just doing your job.

Been Reading

I started reading The Shark and The Goldfish tonight. It is a book assigned by our principal... and it's actually turning out to be a really good book. (Not that I did not think my principal could pick a good book, just that I normally turn my nose up at assigned reading. lol) Anyhow, I am all about positive thinking and so is this book. So far I am only on page 22, but it really sounds a lot like the way I think, which is cool. It talks about making the choice to be positive and controlling your reactions to situations. Now, I am not saying that this is how I always live my life, but it is certainly how I try to live my life. It also talked about how things happen a certain way for a reason and that it leads you to other situations and you have to choose how you react to these and make a choice and be positive. Anyhow, it got me to thinking about how different my life would be if everything worked out the way I wanted the first time... looking back on it, YIKES! I have talked about this topic before by talking about unanswered prayers. (I mean, they're not unanswered exactly, just put on hold or replaced with better things.) I am planning to work even harder to be positive about certain situations in my life. It doesn't mean I need to give up or find other situations to replace the current ones, it means I need to work harder. Oh, and I will!

Another topic to discuss...
You know what's crazy? God loves me more than the sun and the stars and He loves me all the time. He loves me. Me. A sinner. A complainer. A person out of so many people. Holy cow! How awesome is that? It amazes me that He could love me. I am oh so grateful for that. I am grateful beyond belief. Why? Because I need that love. I need that belief in me. I need HIM.


And, I have Him. :) On my side.

Deep Thoughts

are not my thing. lol I don't mean to say that I do not think deeply, 

I simply mean that my life is not so complex that it requires a great deal of deep thought. 

Anyhow, all of that being said...

People often ask me about my marriage. People think my marriage is weird... different. 

Well, it is. It is not your "typical" marriage, but I would challenge someone to tell me 

what a "typical" marriage is. I've heard before that a marriage is as unique as the people in it. 

Oh, how true that is. What works for one couple would never fly with another, and so on.

 I know many people who spend every free moment with their spouse. I know others 

who rarely see their spouses. I know people who secretly despise their spouses. I know others 

who are obsessed. I know people who seem to fear their spouses and others who live to 

serve their spouses. I am none of those people. The truth is, my husband is my best

 friend. He makes me laugh. He keeps me grounded. He helps me to set and achieve goals. 

He loves me. I love him.

Do we share the same interests? Hardly. Do we enjoy going and doing the same things. 

Yeah right. Do we even like the same music? Hahahaha. We could hardly be more

 different in that regard. But, we make it work. We are very independent. 

We are not each other's "other half"... but he is my whole heart. He is the one person I 

would do absolutely anything for. We joke. We laugh. We smile. We sing. We dance.

 Yet, we're serious. We want the same things. We are headed in the same direction. 

We love Milly and Shelby. We put them first.

So, maybe if you know me you think we're strange... but, as I 

said, I challenge you to show me a perfect couple.  I don't think such a thing exists.

What the Lord has done in me

I love this song and thought I'd share it!

Happy New Year

Happy New Year!

To say that I am excited about what this year may bring is an understatement. Last year was full of stress and fear... of sadness and worries. Not this year. Last year we were both unemployed. I was unemployed from May 2009 until June 2010. It was very difficult. My H was unemployed from December 2009 until September 2010. 2010 brought us many challenges. It brought us many times when we truly had to just sit tight and hold on. It was hard. It also brought us good things. We both (finally) found jobs. We gained family members and next year are expecting to gain another nephew. I am excited for the year to come because 2010 taught me that Jake and I can weather the storm. We have what it takes and we love each other enough to know that our lives are always better when we are together... no matter how rotten the situation may seem. 2011 will bring many things- a new nephew, possibly a new house, maybe even more opportunities to make differences and be good people. 2011 will also bring struggles, I'm sure of it. No year is without some sort of struggle. But, God gave me Jake for the ups and downs (I love that song!) and I am certain we can make it through anything. 


Now, if I can just remember to write 2011 as the date, we'll all be ok. lol