So Far Today

So far today Jake and I have gone to get our rings sized, picked up a new shower curtain liner, walked Milly and Shelby, and given them a bath.

I'm pretty excited about the rings! :) We get them back later this week. I think the rings kind of make the whole "wedding" thing real. Ya know? I think it's funny how different people view rings differently and there are so many to pick from. Some people want them to match and other don't care if they do. Some people want there to be diamonds on the band while others don't. There are just so many options. Jake and I opted for plain white gold bands. His is wider than mine but they are basically the same thing. I don't know why that mattered so much to me that they be the same... but it did- and still does. I guess I feel like people can tell I'm married to him by looking at the rings. lol I don't know. It's strange how people (myself included) get stuck on a certain idea and just can't get over it. I'm one of those people who becomes obsessed with one thing for awhile and then moves on to a new obsession... that or I get it in my head that something has to be one way and, by golly, it's going to be that way! lol So, that's how we ended up with the plain white gold matching bands. Well, that and Jake wanted white gold and so did I... but he didn't seem to care if they matched or not.

I really needed a new shower curtain liner. Mine was super gross. I know that's gross to share with people, but it was nasty. It's strange because I could almost swear that the thing was completely clean like last week and the next thing I know it's super gross. lol So, we got one of those at Target on our way home. It was super cheap too which is great because neither one of us has much extra money right now.

Milly and Shelby love to go on walks and be outside. It makes me feel a little guilty that they don't have a fenced-in space to run and play. I know how much they enjoy being outside and I just wish they had that space... I hope that soon enough we will be able to live somewhere that has a fence.

Anyhow, while on our walk today (like most other days) Milly decided to roll on something nasty. She does this when we pass dead bugs, dried up things, and who knows what else. Today she picked a lovely squashed to the pavement and dried up dead snake to roll on. When I say roll on I mean she literally lays down on the ground and rolls over and rubs her back on the nastiness. It is so gross but also really funny. It makes her happy- so I usually give in and let her be. At some point on this particular walk she also decided to roll in "pitch" as Jake calls it. (I refer to this sticky substance as "sap.") Anyhow, she was sticky and she had to have a bath. I figured since I was bathing her I might as well get Shelby clean too. :)

I know I mentioned before that I graduated with a BA in Elementary Education. I am currently looking for a job. I never, even in my wildest dreams, would have guessed that it would prove to be so difficult and next to impossible to find a teaching job. Of course, I never thought the economy would be like this either. I am just frustrated with the entire situation. People tell me that the schools will hire this summer. The schools mostly say they aren't hiring. It's awful. The thing I find most frustrating is people telling me "you'll find a job. I know you will." I know that they are trying to be helpful, but the fact of the matter is that I cannot find a job if there aren't any out there for the taking. People have mentioned moving to me but I cannot move until December because Jake is in school until then and we need to be within an hour or so from Columbia. I know that God will provide a way for us and that we will be ok. I have total faith in Him to get us through this. I know that there is no situation so great that God is not greater still... it's just difficult to think that way when you're standing in the middle of the chaos. There's a quote that says something to the effect of "when you reach the end of the tunnel and are about to step out into the darkness of the unknown, one of two things will happen: either you will given solid ground to stand on or you will be taught how to fly." I ask God every day: "God, give me ground or give me wings!" Because I truly feel I'm nearing the end of that tunnel and there are about to be some major changes... I just hope I'm ready!!