There are some things going on in my life right now that I have chosen not to make public (yet)... these things weigh heavily on my heart and soul... but I am not alone. I had a strange experience the other day and I have not shared it with anyone... yet... but I am about to.
First of all, last week I was having a tiny pity party for myself and thinking "why me?" and (let me go a little farther back to explain that I listen to contemporary Christian on the radio. It really helps to keep my attitude in check- so, anyhow, as I was saying) the song Stronger by Mandisa came on the radio at that exact moment.
Later in that same car ride (remember, I commute nearly an hour each way to work) I was thinking about maybe decisions I have made in the past are what the problem is, etc and the song You Are More by Tenth Avenue North came on the radio. I cannot tell you how strange it was, but yet how much I truly felt like God was talking to me through those songs.
Now, I'm not one of those people who thinks I hear God's voice or anything like that (and there's nothing wrong if you do... who am I to decide what really happens with other people?) but I do feel that He uses people in my life and events to guide my decisions... and He was answering me through the radio that day.
There are so many changes going on right now. Some of them are wonderful and some of them have me terrified, but I know without a doubt that God has a plan for me. He knows what I need and He will make a way for me.
So, again, I have reached a time in my life where I am on my knees and praying "Dear Lord, Give me ground or give me wings."
("When you have come to the edge of all of the light that you know and are about to drop off into the darkness of the unknown, faith is knowing one of two things will happen: there will be something solid to stand on or you will be taught to fly." ~Patrick Overton)