I Rarely Admit This

And maybe that's part of the problem, but it's a hard thing to admit.

I rarely admit that I need other people. I try very hard to be independent (and am for the most part). I hate to admit that I can't do it all. I cannot be everything to everyone. I cannot be 10 different places at one time. I cannot be one person to someone and another person to someone else. It is so hard. Sometimes (ok, all the time) I bite off more than I can chew, so to speak.
                         My latest example: Here's is my life as it currently stands:
Sunday- church (not nearly often enough), laundry, cleaning, grading/school work/preparing for my class I'm taking
Monday- work, meeting, get ready for Tuesday, go home, make dinner (sometimes), watch tv, go to bed
Tuesday- work, class, go home, eat dinner Jake made, watch tv, go to bed
Wednesday- work, meeting, get ready for Thursday/plan for next week, go home, make dinner, watch tv, go to bed
Thursday- work, plan for next week, make copies for next week, go home, make dinner, watch tv, go to bed
Friday- work, finalize things for next week, go home, make dinner, watch tv, get a few things done around the house, to go bed
Saturday- spend entire day doing things around the house

Through all of this I am also being evaluated this year to hopefully get a continuing contract. It is exhausting. Utterly exhausting.

Sanctus Real - Forgiven (Official Music Video)

Halloween Ribbon Wreath

Birdies and Yard Work

They were starting to rust and not look so hot...

So, now they're shining. :)

Perfect!

Before... pitiful, diseased bushes.

No more! Chopped them down, pulled them up... they're gone!

Something You Miss

I haven't been doing this 30 day challenge... but I saw Katie's post and thought I'd join in.

Something I miss is actually someone I miss. I miss Lily. She was our family pet growing up and she passed away last year. It's weird to go to my Mom's and not see her. Really, sometimes I look for her because I forget. She was so gentle with Milly and Shelby. She was always so sweet to me. So loving. I miss that sweet face and her loving eyes. I miss her company. I just plain ol' miss her.

Go Gamecocks!

Jake and I stay pretty busy. I don't ever feel like we get to spend enough time together. But, is there ever really "enough time" with someone you love? I don't think so. I think maybe it's because we started dating in high school and had a good bit of free time to spend together (of course, then we thought we were busy. I don't think I knew what busy was. lol) Today our lives are all about working, cooking, cleaning, fixing up the house, and spending time with the MilShelb. Mostly, our lives are all about working- unfortunately. Jake and I both have demanding jobs. I love my job, don't get me wrong, but I do wish we had similar schedules because Jake works a lot of weekends and weekends are my only free time. (I use that term loosely, of course, because I bring junk home to do over the weekends because we only get to hang out on the evenings really and I don't bring stuff home during the week. You know, I think teaching may be the only profession where people give you a funny look when you don't bring your work home with you. lol

Anoy how, yesterday was our first game of the season. Jake is a die-hard Gamecock fan and we spent the day in Charlotte tailgating and then went to the game that night. It was great to spend time with Jake. We also got to spend time with Jake's brother, sister-in-law, and some people Jake grew up with. It was hot, but overall, it was a nice day.

This is when Jake offered to take a picture of me after I asked for one of both of us. I am somewhere in saying "no" when he took this. lol

Me and Jake

Here come the Gamecocks!

First kickoff of the Gamecock season!

Pretty building that was near us... of course, it had the wrong colors when I took the pic, but it did change colors throughout the night.

Thank God I Ain't...

I am going to an Eric Church concert in about 2 months with a great friend and I have been listening to his music to prepare (DORKY, I know). I found this song called "What I Almost Was" and part of it says, "Thank God I ain't what I almost was." Amen to that. I cannot tell you how many times I look back and think about how different my life would be if things had turned out this way or that.

... I could have married my high school sweet heart... Thank God for Jake.
... I could have quit college sophomore year and become a dental hygienist... Thank God for a 4-year degree.
... I could have moved to Florida when Jake got that job offer... Thank God for chickening out.
... I could have done so many things differently... Thank God for leading me where He wants me to be.

I am just so glad to be who I am and not be who I could have been. I could have been a completely different person, but I am who I am. Thank God for that. :)